thick_ (thick_) wrote in not_like_them,

As much as I try, I can't seem to relate to 98% of the people I know. So I search for this companionship that is completely unattainable. When I think I've found it, I latch on and ride the waves until I realize I was wrong. Not that I've had any bad friends, I've had some great friendships in fact, and I still sometimes talk to these people but I'm seperate from them, and I know that.
Which I guess is why I'm so comfortable on my own. I'd rather be on my own until that person comes along who fits me perfectly. I don't mean this in a romantic way, although I can't say it wouldn't be nice.

I don't know what seperates me from people, I can't say I'm truly unique. It's amusing when I try to fit in with other people and within 5 seconds I just back away and go "what are you doing, Tara?" heh.

I know at this point it's the fact that people don't seem to have a mind of thier own, but when I was in elementry school and feeling this way? I mean when I was little I had countless imaginary friends and I'd probabaly say I still make things up to this day at 17 years old.
I've lived thousands of things in my head, so much that I've gone through month long periods of isolation without even a blink of an eye. The thing is, the world in your head, although limitless, is the loneliest.

i'm also terrible at explaining myself.
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